I’m planning on today being the day to end my life.
This has been building for days and each day a little more is planned.
I’m completely consumed by the simple fact that I’m both mentally and physically ill and can not recover.
I cannot redirect this energy to improve my life, regardless how much I try.
I cannot even get an apology.
Not that an apology would heal me, but at least I wouldn’t feel so worthless.
Friends of Jeff and Blythe’s are taking their side and quite frankly I don’t have many friends because I am socially awkward and too mentally and physically ill to maintain friendships.
I can’t make any money to survive.
I’m a drain on this world and the people I love.
Goodbye and good luck.
Don’t worry, I’m only going to take my own life. I have never wanted to hurt others, only remove myself from this world that I never belonged.
I’m sorry to the few who love me.
The sad part is this is the favorite website I’ve ever built. I really loved it when it was for The Rusty Mug Bar & Grill because it was really easy to navigate and if they would have told me what content to put up then it would have been amazing.
I want to say one final thing. Please do not blame Jeff and Blythe Oade for this. While they showed a lack of empathy, they aren’t at fault, Jeff simply triggered something already within me. Jeff was confused about how the internet works and about my intentions.
I probably would have done this eventually anyway even if I never met either of them.
I’m a pathetic loser that couldn’t even give a website away for free when others charge thousands.